path...sigh

Seeing you, standing so far yet so near
Took me back in time.
When you'd be waiting for me
Standing just like that;
Love, adoration shining like a halo
Surrounding me in its warmth.

Yet today, I feel none of it
Even though you look just the same.
But the halo not for me
Eyes dry, throat even drier;
I try to call out to you
But the words get choked.

Because suddenly, you smile
At her, with even more adoration.
Jealously tears me up
I walk away, not really rejected;
But so very left out, so very lonely
Sadness so raw, I evade even tears.